At times i feel that i’m being pushed into Vacuum….As if my entire existence is becoming Void…..I just can’t explain as to why i feel that way….Obscurity will be at its peak…..Cynicism surfaces up in my perception of the world around me….I refuse to trust anybody around me….
Don’t panic it is just impulsive…And it usually happens when i’m both mentally and physically exhausted….I again get back with more enthusiasm than before…..
I really don’t know as to why i’m put through days like these where nothing goes as it should…I’m exposed to a diaspora of events which trigger torrents of feelings and situations in a single day….
First of all,I’m fed up of trying to atone my actions…I hadn’t realised these things to turn out like this, but it is very frustrating…
Over this the fatigue,courtesy a viral fever and a persistent cold….
Combine these two and it is the perfect melancholy….As a consequence,I was not able to keep up my commitments,including my record submission and more importantly i could not meet two of my tribe members( check out the post “Small tribe of mavericks”).
Later in the evening, seeking some relief, me and my group reached a theatre to catch the latest Bond flick,as planned earlier….That i guess made me detach from my entire day’s hang over…The movie wasn’t a masterpiece of sorts,but it was able to keep my mind free from all the things left behind me…
Then,it was my friends’ turn to immerse me in a small sea of joy…We had good fun on our way back home…
Now, i’m into the next day,without taking a break…Hope today is not as demanding as yesterday…It is not fear or disinterest…It is just that too much is too bad and nowadays i have got a blessing of some sort i guess-i’m always getting more than what i aspire for…
I had this thought in my head that, people around me think quite the opposite to whatever i think. No one’s thoughts were in sync with those of mine. There wasn’t anyone who could understand my way of thinking,no one who could anticipate my reactions,no one to judge me credibly. But,by now i know atleast three people whom i’d call like not just minded with me but more than that. I see reflections of each other when i’m with them. It makes me happy to get to know and interact with such people. Calling us friends does no justice to our perception of each other. We are personified portions of each others’ personalities. It makes me feel proud and humbled at the same time,that we belong to this small tribe of mavericks.
While talking to one of my friends,i just realised that i hadn’t been dedicating substantial amount of time to few of my interests, which are really close to me. I just realised that it had been quite some time that i had read my favourite literary works from Kannada- the vachanas. I used to be obsessed with these literary masterpieces. Now,i’ve lost the touch of using them as quotes. I used to use them appropriately while in converstations. I miss them now. I must get back to them,it would be really nice for me to read them and use them,you ll enjoy the way i use them.
Also i’ve been trying to plan and watch a play at Ranga Shankara. I should soon do it,i would love watching it.
Do you think Bin Laden masterminded the 9/11 attacks thinking that it was a crime and that it was something against his conscience. I think- no,not at all…
Things are different when we consider different things. Same is the case with perception of events and occurrences happening in the world around us. We should do what we feel is right. It’s you who should feel complacent about what you are doing. It should not be a function of others’ reactions or expectations. Self reliance and self satisfaction should be the light houses guiding the ship housing your actions. And what to do about people,how to treat and react to them???
I follow this: I do to you,what you do to me.
After facing a lot of turmoil and after being lost,i think i have put myself on the road to recovery…I have done the needful after having a rendezvous with a shocking surprise in store for me in future…
I’ve been hearing bits and pieces of the magic created by these vocal cords…Not only me, anyone who listens to his voice will feel a stir within them..The sound of his voice just churns out emotions which are ethnic Indian….
I was left astounded by his music(he even composes his music)…Amazing use of guitar,ethnic drums with a touch of rock….Its just superb….
Another important thing is,he has tracks in Hindi,but the there are few in Kannada also…Its awesome to hear him in Kannada with pretty interesting lyrics,again most of it by him…
Amazing !!!! The rustic feel to his voice somewhere invokes your roots,the Indian feel,its quite unbelievable that a voice can do all this…
RAGHU DIXIT is the man,he’s got a bright future…It will take him to places and hope he does carry this same touch with him…
Albums:
Raghu.dixit(Vishal Shekhar label)
Psycho(Kannada)
One of my teammates said ,the most efficient time spent amongst us-the team had been the past 2 days…We have been spending substantial amount of time at all slots of the day,giving form to our work as a Paper,which we’ll be presenting in a National Conference on Space Technology.
It is actually anomalous for me atleast to work overnight and deliver my best…But when you are in a team,you tend to absorb the attributes of the team,because you feel that you are a part of the team and you need to cope up with others…
The time we’ve been spending brainstorming, formulating thoughts,chilling out at canteens and coffee shops at bizarre times is actually doing good for the project,for we are now understanding each other in a better way,rapport between us is deepening.Consequentially,the quality of work emanating from us is at its current best….I’m glad we are functioning this way…
There’s nothing of any importance in life-except how well you do your work.Nothing…..Only that…Whatever else you are,will come from that..It’s the only measure of human value…(Atlas Shrugged)
When i was reading these lines, it was as if someone had already read my mind and put it into words.It’s the best feeling you can have when you are reading someone’s work,and you feel that the person has had a peep into your head and has stolen your thoughts…Its just superb,when you see that what you are thinking has already been thought,and those thoughts have been realised in the form of words,music,movies,….
It actually brings two varieties of feelings-one is a sense of happiness,for another successful person has had the same thoughts as yours.And the other being,if i was existent before them,they would have been thinking of me as i’m thinking of them now….Anyways,I’m still proud that at times i share my thoughts with many great minds like-Ayn Rand(objectivism),Sigmund Freud(sleep and dreams),Bryan Adams(love and romance),Dr.Kalam(certain visions),and many more…
When you succeed,usually it will be your contemporaries who do not want to see you succeed in your ambitions. You need have no fear of those who are older or younger than yourself,they know you will never be their rival… (Excerpt from a Jeffrey Archer book)
This may seem as if i’m accusing a few of you.But its just a fact which our conscious mind doesn’t want to endorse. Just think, there is one particular thing a human mind creates against its fellow beings which initially drives it to do better. But after few tries,the mind gives up its efforts,and tries to hamper the peer’s efforts. This is a subtle and slightly personal layer within you and me-jealousy. Feeling jealous is perfectly normal.
I know you may not be jealous of me, or probably you are. But, don’t say that you are not jealous of atleast one of your peers for atleast one or the other reason. This is a natural tendency,its cool up to a certain extent,beyond that,its bad for the both involved.
I’ve seen the people face extremes of actions and counteractions from people who are envious. Starting from pranks to manipulated scams to even much beyond these.
It is necessary to have a driving force within you,even if it is negative. But that negativity shouldn’t be trespassing the limits of humane ethics…
Ideas are Immortal 